LIFE IS A MAZE(ing) | Listen to Your Heart (?) | Philippians 2:12-13 | Week 5

I can remember when I was freshman in college and went and purchased the album that song (Obsession) is off of.  It was written by Martin Smith, but recorded by David Crowder.  I remember lying in my bed in my dorm room at Colorado State, having my Discman next to me.  I was listening to the song and thinking to myself, "My heart does burn.  Jesus, I want you.  Closer than my skin, yeah."  All that stuff Crowder's singing, I want it.  I was going onto high school campuses and telling people about Jesus; people that didn't want to hear about it...it didn't matter to me.  My heart burned.

Around that same time, I started to want a Jeep CJ-7.  My heart burned for that too.  I went out and bought one, not knowing anything about car mechanics and having zero propensity for repairing anything.  It was a 1985 CJ-7 and it didn't have a hardtop (just a soft top) and soft doors.  I remember driving away thinking, "This is my freedom."  I was on my way home---it was a 45 minute drive from where I purchased the car to my parent's house---and one of those Colorado thunderstorms formed.  I was in this Jeep with no top, living it up, when a thunderstorm of epic proportions came right over my head.  It was a deluge!  I remember getting absolutely destroyed by this thunderstorm, and people in cars next to me were absolutely laughing.  It was coming down so hard I had to pull over and I had this thought almost immediately, "Not everything my heart wants is good!  Not everything my heart wants is worth wanting!" because I wanted this...and maybe I shouldn't have...